Im realizing now my perfectly planned fairytale future is officially not happening…. barely still in school, working a shitty retail job, pregnant and not married…. its the white trash standard…. i just hope i can give this baby everything i couldnt have…. i also hope kalieb is willing to stick thru this with me….

I realized that i really am pregnant today when it took me all day to do the dishes and i somehow kept wandering to the couch and fell asleep a thousand times… 8 more months of feeling sluggish and lazy… hooray

Im pregnant.

Kalieb and i went today to my first prenatal appointment im between 4 or 5 weeks along i go back next tuesday to get a due date and another ultra sound :) things are about to change and im really excited. My modeling hasnt slowed down ether i already have maternity shoots booked for when i get fat and i have a bounce back plan for when i have the baby. I am so happy to start a family with kalieb! If its a girl we wanna name her gypsi and if its a boy we wanna name him memphis

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my math class is a nightmare…..

so im sittin here listenin to ratatat i dont really know whats goin thru my hea right now… but as selfish as it sounds all i can think about it how pissed i am that i havent had a shoot this month… i DID have one set up but he informed me that i was too skinny and needed to gain weight before we could do the shoot (im eating cookies as we speak) i really wanna get into more hotrod pinup tho… its sucks living in huntsville yeah its a big city but nothing here for me… all the good stuffs in atlanta :( ….. and that schools in atl…… one day i’ll stop writing about it and i’ll just do it… one of these days

space cowgirl… LMAO!!!!!! thanks sharif <3 so as i’m sitting here on campus… something doesnt really feel right and i think its because i know i should get going to bridge street and getting taco bell with a certain old friend who i considered my best friend… i hate missing people.

so its the first day back of the spring semester and i am currently in what i like to call my “nook” which is located on the 2nd floor of the library on campus i am hiding behind a giant book case in a chair that my butt sinks into and is perfect for indian style sitting and next to me is a wall that is nothing but a window… its magical. i dont have class till 1245 so this is where i plan on spending monday thru friday from 1115 to 1245. I am officialy moved in with Kalieb i am not outta the ghetto but i am out of my filthy old apartment. Ursala (my boxer/pit) is doing alot better then i expected… i thought that by moving in with kalieb we would maybe drive eachother nuts or smother eachother… but i find myself missing him so much more when i’m not around him… its crazy how i can NEVER get that boy off my mind… but i like it that way. he is defiantly the most possitive thing thats happened to me so far in my crazy story of a life its hard to explain but he just makes me such a better person. ive also been spending more time with the people who will more than likely be around for a LOOOONG time aka my true friends. my sister (of course) ive been going to lunch with her and coffee almost weekly now and we make plans on how we’re going to take over huntsville via craftys. then theres dave who is my best fuckin friend and for birthday/christmas tattooed my flamingos on my calves i’ll post pics at the top of my post… he’s seriously the male version of me and its hard to find sincere poeple nowadays. i wish that me and meghan talked more shes about to elope to france tho so i’m sure she’s extremly busy… ive even been wanting to call my dad more to stay in touch with him.. i’ve met alot of new people so far and i’m just super super super excited to see where life takes me :)

the flamingos are unfinished still need to be colored and shaded got those on saturday and friday i got the black cat 9 lives.

Rode with kalieb to athens the other day he had to paint the doors on a rat rod i sat there and played with the camera on my droid here are alllll the results hahah

i’m getting really nervous bout my 2nd semester of school…. i really miss teh 1st semester and i know it wont be the same…. even tho i wish it was… i miss alot of things right now…